Enjoy each day as it comes
It has been months since I have taken the time to try to write something in my blog or even enjoy others blogs. I have wanted to, but just haven't been motivated or felt very creative. I still don't feel very creative, but have a thought I want to record.
Since Dave's relapse in November when the cancer came back, it seems time has just marched on even thought I want to try to slow it down and hang on to every day. I always thought that if I knew I was actually dying....I would live each day differently as if it were my last and I would do something special every day. Well, I have come to realize that in fact, I am actually getting closer to my death every day even though I have no terminal illness that I know of. Actually, we all are getting closer to our death every day because everyone is terminal....we all have an "expiration date" -- even if we don't know when it is. But going through this illness with Dave and watching him suffer through treatments, fatigue, worry of dying and days of just not feeling good has made me realize a few things.
There is nothing "special" that we have to do each day, we just have to be aware and ever so grateful for each and every day. The special thing we try to do is just to enjoy each day as it comes and enjoy our normal work, play and pray pattern. Try to be nice to everyone and have a happy outlook even when it is raining - inside or out. I wouldn't want to be galavanting all over the world anyway - we have enough to enjoy each day just as it comes.
Dave loves his tutoring and golfing and working on the computer. I am enjoying normal every day routine things that it takes to keep a home working, plus my golf and painting and scripture study. We are thankful that St.Joseph's College has a good basketball schedule and we have gone to many games there this year and just enjoy the game, the band, the hot dogs and being together (with Scruffy waiting in the car for his periodic walks!). That is a day to be thankful for.
Recently Dave decided (on Friday night!) that we should leave on Saturday for a trip to Myrtle Beach to visit our friends Sandy and Mike. They had planned on us coming in March, but the return of the cancer and more treatments in January those plans were cancelled. Not sure how he will be feeling in March....but knew he was feeling good for a few weeks...so OFF we went!! Called them and they were thrilled we were coming! It was a wonderful trip. Had fun with our picnic's in the car...walking Scruffy at every stop (whether we wanted to or not!) the fast food stops and a lovely evening in a hotel on the way. It was a great visit with Sandy and Mike..had several dinner guests with old friends we had met in Dayton Beach. Went to a couple of shows and just sat around visiting and walking our dogs. Dave got to play golf while Sandee and I went shopping and visited. We realized how may friends we have and how grateful we are for each and every one of them. We truly enjoyed...each day.
Since we were in South Carolina, we checked out the map and realized we could go see our daughter and her family in Georgia in about a 6 hour trip. Not exactly on our way home, but what the heck...we are retired and have time time and want to see them! Dave had to be home for tutoring, but we had the weekend to travel, so off we went to Georgia. Met up with the family at their home and then all went out to eat at a geat spot! Good food and a midway for the kids to go play games. It was so good to see them all. We were so grateful for the day ....just to be able to see Stacey, Justin, Jerra, (who is growing up WAY too fast and Joey - her friend), Joshua (getting really tall and who has extremely l-o-n-g hair!) and Jacob (a love). We enjoyed the trip there and enjoyed being with them all even for just a little while.
Next morning I got to go feed the goats! They are so cool....and pretty too. One goat is about to have a baby....won't that be something? The ducks were swimming in their "natural" God-made pond (thanks to all the rain!) and the dogs were running around having a good time. Except Scout and Bear...who have to be corraled due to their behavior! Bob has two little friends now that are darling and Sheila (the new little dog) is precious as can be. We surely enjoyed the short visit and are grateful we were able to stop by and see the possee and the farm! Hated to take Stacey and Justin's bedroom.....I don't like to do that...but it was a quick night and then after a yummy breakfast made by Stacey...we headed home. Just enjoying the moment. We felt blessed to see them all. And grateful for such a wonderful family.
This week has flown by. Dave is still feeling good. WE are praying the treatment of Zevalin is working and killing all the cancer tumors and any new cancer cells that might be in the area. We trust our creator to watch over us and bless us each day. Our "expiration" dates are unknown to us, but we are fully aware that they are a reality and so....we just are grateful every day and especially happy when we have the opportunity to feel good and visit dear friends and precious family. Life is good. We always kiss goodnight with gratitude.
Since Dave's relapse in November when the cancer came back, it seems time has just marched on even thought I want to try to slow it down and hang on to every day. I always thought that if I knew I was actually dying....I would live each day differently as if it were my last and I would do something special every day. Well, I have come to realize that in fact, I am actually getting closer to my death every day even though I have no terminal illness that I know of. Actually, we all are getting closer to our death every day because everyone is terminal....we all have an "expiration date" -- even if we don't know when it is. But going through this illness with Dave and watching him suffer through treatments, fatigue, worry of dying and days of just not feeling good has made me realize a few things.
There is nothing "special" that we have to do each day, we just have to be aware and ever so grateful for each and every day. The special thing we try to do is just to enjoy each day as it comes and enjoy our normal work, play and pray pattern. Try to be nice to everyone and have a happy outlook even when it is raining - inside or out. I wouldn't want to be galavanting all over the world anyway - we have enough to enjoy each day just as it comes.
Dave loves his tutoring and golfing and working on the computer. I am enjoying normal every day routine things that it takes to keep a home working, plus my golf and painting and scripture study. We are thankful that St.Joseph's College has a good basketball schedule and we have gone to many games there this year and just enjoy the game, the band, the hot dogs and being together (with Scruffy waiting in the car for his periodic walks!). That is a day to be thankful for.
Recently Dave decided (on Friday night!) that we should leave on Saturday for a trip to Myrtle Beach to visit our friends Sandy and Mike. They had planned on us coming in March, but the return of the cancer and more treatments in January those plans were cancelled. Not sure how he will be feeling in March....but knew he was feeling good for a few weeks...so OFF we went!! Called them and they were thrilled we were coming! It was a wonderful trip. Had fun with our picnic's in the car...walking Scruffy at every stop (whether we wanted to or not!) the fast food stops and a lovely evening in a hotel on the way. It was a great visit with Sandy and Mike..had several dinner guests with old friends we had met in Dayton Beach. Went to a couple of shows and just sat around visiting and walking our dogs. Dave got to play golf while Sandee and I went shopping and visited. We realized how may friends we have and how grateful we are for each and every one of them. We truly enjoyed...each day.
Since we were in South Carolina, we checked out the map and realized we could go see our daughter and her family in Georgia in about a 6 hour trip. Not exactly on our way home, but what the heck...we are retired and have time time and want to see them! Dave had to be home for tutoring, but we had the weekend to travel, so off we went to Georgia. Met up with the family at their home and then all went out to eat at a geat spot! Good food and a midway for the kids to go play games. It was so good to see them all. We were so grateful for the day ....just to be able to see Stacey, Justin, Jerra, (who is growing up WAY too fast and Joey - her friend), Joshua (getting really tall and who has extremely l-o-n-g hair!) and Jacob (a love). We enjoyed the trip there and enjoyed being with them all even for just a little while.
Next morning I got to go feed the goats! They are so cool....and pretty too. One goat is about to have a baby....won't that be something? The ducks were swimming in their "natural" God-made pond (thanks to all the rain!) and the dogs were running around having a good time. Except Scout and Bear...who have to be corraled due to their behavior! Bob has two little friends now that are darling and Sheila (the new little dog) is precious as can be. We surely enjoyed the short visit and are grateful we were able to stop by and see the possee and the farm! Hated to take Stacey and Justin's bedroom.....I don't like to do that...but it was a quick night and then after a yummy breakfast made by Stacey...we headed home. Just enjoying the moment. We felt blessed to see them all. And grateful for such a wonderful family.
This week has flown by. Dave is still feeling good. WE are praying the treatment of Zevalin is working and killing all the cancer tumors and any new cancer cells that might be in the area. We trust our creator to watch over us and bless us each day. Our "expiration" dates are unknown to us, but we are fully aware that they are a reality and so....we just are grateful every day and especially happy when we have the opportunity to feel good and visit dear friends and precious family. Life is good. We always kiss goodnight with gratitude.
posted by Thoughts From Serenity at
11:45 AM
2 Comments:
You know, when I was younger death always seemed do far away. No one I knew had ever died, so it was a far thought from my mind. When Grandma Bruns died, it seemed more real, but not so much that I thought about it. When we lost Mr.Donato, it really hit me. I remeber when Mom went over to Stef's to see what you had called about, I prayed it wasn't Grandpa. I remember how long it took to get over his death, and even now, I tear up a bit just thinking of my old friend. Now, the threat of losing Grandpa is very real. I remember when he had his first treatment and was thin and lost all his hair...i kept praying to God..."Please, just give me a few more years." I want him to be able to walk me down the isle, and be there to see his great grand kids. I know that I'll never really be ready for him to go, but just a few more years. He's always been there for me, and I'm just not ready to lose him. You either, I just can't picture my life without the two of you. I know that at times I'm self-centered and forget to call or email...i don't mean to, I just get busy. I always think about you, and pray for both of you every day. i love you both - Jerra
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Bear, at 11:23 AM
AWWWWW....thanks so much Jerra...we love so you very much and when we are gone from down here on earth...we will always be watching over you!
Thanks for responding..
I love you...always, Gram
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Thoughts From Serenity, at 6:14 PM
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